August 4th, 2026
Beat Up By God
Finding Faith When Life Feels Like It's Falling Apart
Most people don't lose faith because they stop believing in God. They lose faith because life doesn't turn out the way they prayed it would.
The healing didn't come. The marriage didn't survive. The answer never arrived. And somewhere in the silence, they started wondering if God had forgotten them.
In Beat Up By God, Matthew Jenkins shares the truth from surviving cancer, chronic pain, marital separation, depression, and a season so dark it nearly cost him his life. Then he reveals how God met him in the middle of the suffering and transformed it into something deeper than the miracle he was asking for.
Inside, you'll discover:
✔ Why God's silence doesn't mean He's abandoned you
✔ How to trust God when prayers go unanswered
✔ The difference between faith built on feelings and faith built to endure
✔ Why suffering can become the place where healing begins
✔ How to find peace even when you don't have the answers
This isn't a book about getting everything you want from God. It's about discovering He's still with you when life falls apart.
Does this sound familiar?
You keep asking the same questions, carrying the same disappointments, and wondering why God feels so distant. You pray, you wait, and you try to stay faithful, yet the answers never seem to come the way you hoped.
You've read the devotionals and heard the sermons. "Just trust God." "Have more faith." "Keep praying." Yet when the suffering continues, those answers can feel incomplete. The longer the silence lasts, the harder it becomes to understand what God is doing.
You've started wondering if God is disappointed in you. The prayer that went unanswered. The healing that never came. The relationship that still isn't restored. Somewhere along the way, confusion replaced confidence, and faith started feeling harder than it should.
If any of this sounds like you, join the waitlist.
Meet the author
Matthew Jenkins
Matthew Jenkins is a father and man of faith whose journey through pain, loss, and renewal has deepened his understanding of God's grace. After battling cancer, enduring personal trials, and wrestling with feelings of abandonment by God, Matthew discovered that suffering can be a sacred path to redemption.
Out of that journey came Beat Up By God: Finding Faith When Life Feels Like It's Falling Apart, a raw and honest testimony written to help believers who feel forgotten or broken see that God's hand is still at work, especially in the hardest seasons.
Matthew combines transparency, Scripture, and hope to remind readers that even when life feels unbearable, God's love remains unshakable. He lives in Delaware and is active in his local church community, where he encourages others to find purpose through their pain.
